Credits:

First thing first, the songs that I put on repeat when I write.

1. 飘零燕Lonely swallows by Twins. Like I had mentioned in the some chapters back. This song was the main contribution of the story's idea. This song's actually written for orphans, describing the orphans as the lonely swallows - the idea of abandonment, the looking of home. You should listen to song when reading the part when Risa is a step nearer to her past.

Lyrics translation:

In the past, I used to hold tight to her arms
In all my childhood, She always tuck me in bed with a kiss me
Too bad one day, She actually packed up her luggage, leaving me all alone

And there will be someday, where the swallow will leave its home, spreading its wings and fly in the sky
Being lost for that its unable to see its parents on its journey
And that it have to fool itself that its family wasn't broken in the first place.

And now leaving me all alone
Learning how to fly strongly, that's something I've gained
However whenever I'm tired, whenever I feel like crying
How I wish that my parents would hold me tight, Like how they used to do

The lost lonely swallow wants to go home
But, It's all covered with snow, all covered with cold
Landing on where, where could be considered home
I need to struggle my wings
Getting use to the loneliness, flying in this long lonesome trip back

Flying up and high into the sky, I will fear, I will be cold
Still holding back the lost childhood memories
Withstanding alone all the tribulations met
Though that, I would still miss her as I grow older

Guys . . . Could give me love and affections
But I will still doubt whether could we get along together
How many lovers out there, who can be sure that the love will never fade, will never end?

And I prayed with all my heart for all the little swallows
Will be able to live a life with worries, where their parents will provide them with the warmth during the cold nights
Without missing anyone in the family, without any disputes

And now leaving me all alone
Learning how to fly strongly, that's something I've gained
However whenever I'm tired, whenever I feel like crying
How I wish that my parents would hold me tight, Like how they used to do


The lost lonely swallow wants to go home
But, It's all covered with snow, all covered with cold
Landing on where, where could be considered home
You need to struggle my wings
Getting use to the loneliness, flying in this long lonesome trip back

Flying up and high into the sky, I will fear, I will be cold
Still holding back the lost childhood memories
Withstanding alone all the tribulations met
Though that, I would still miss her as I grow older

The lost lonely swallow wants to go home
But, It's all covered with snow, all covered with cold
Landing on where, where could be considered home
You need to struggle my wings
Getting use to the loneliness, flying in this long lonesome trip back

Flying up and high into the sky, I will fear, I will be cold
Still holding back the lost childhood memories
Withstanding alone all the tribulations met
Though that, I would still miss her as I grow older

You have already grown up, being about to return home on your own
You can what's your future be, and you can fly back, even in the night of cold.

The translation is a little bit choppy - some of it are straight direct translation, so yeah L

2. 幼稚园 Kindergarten by Twins

The idea of the clock was from this song. it was something like : As the clock goes tick tock tick tock, the sound of the school bell had rang, I wonder why my hands had trembled.

Basically, the song is talking about being a child, having to grow through the process of growing up. When you are young, you always have the habit to go back to your parents, whenever you met trouble, sadness. Having grown up, there will be some time where you wished you are still like a kindergarten kid, don't you? - That's the gist of the song.

3. しょうがない夢追い人　Shouganai Yume Oibito by Morning Musume

by Morning Musume

My favourite MM Song. Never fails to save me when I'm stuck with the story.

4. There You'll be by Faith Hill

Another song that kept me on a writing spree. J

And there are lots and lots more to list, but these four are the more significant ones, for that I had took points and idea from the song.